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| 09:39am 08/01/2007 |
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yea it was like really intimate, filled with "inside" references. but that's over. so... livejournal
darker than a crawlspace
safely tucked away
i'll cuddle as close to you as i can be
i won't have it any other way
tell me all of your dreams
and introduce me to hope
i'll tell you of my nightmares
you seem like you can cope
we'll make it like a bunker
protection from the world
and when the bomb drops,
we'll be safe inside our world
we will loot upon occassion
to provide for our nest
when you're feeling peckish, i know what you like best
cheese cubes and gummy worms
in that order please
but i guess i was just wondering
if this was something you would do
come sleep under my bed with me?
i know i can make room |
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| 03:02pm 27/11/2006 |
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mood:  chipper music: yea
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"effervescing elephant" by sid barrett. esp if you are kyle valery. it will make you happy. and then sad. mostly happy. |
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| 10:12am 15/11/2006 |
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mood:  pensive
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i've been in one place for a very long time, and i've realized that i'm never going to be anything more than i am now. i think, if anything, it will just go downhill from here. i need some sort of diversionary tactic, something that will keep fate at bay. maybe i should join the army or something. i'm going to go to jail soon anyway, sometime in either january or february. i'll only be in for about a month, but i need to nip this in the bud. i don't want to be like people i know, in and out of jail. i don't think i can do school, though. something has to change. |
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| 06:22pm 30/10/2006 |
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take the plunge! |
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| update journal |
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| 02:36pm 26/10/2006 |
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mood:  riding on acid's tailcoats music: the vines
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so i like my job.
my ankle is bleeding
it may look like i'm sitting still but i'm actually flying back and forth
i slept in my van
all i eat is pizza and quiznos |
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| 10:08am 02/10/2006 |
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i got a job |
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| i've been laughing since 7:45 |
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| 07:56pm 24/09/2006 |
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[19:45] WhipHorsesEyes: hey there
[19:46] xtheemptyjarx: hi
[19:46] xtheemptyjarx: ....there.
[19:46] xtheemptyjarx: SUP
[19:46] WhipHorsesEyes: mwahaha
[19:46] xtheemptyjarx: yes, mwah, i don't know who you are
[19:46] WhipHorsesEyes: this is ellyn lol
[19:47] xtheemptyjarx: hahaha
[19:47] xtheemptyjarx: i'm still laughing
[19:47] xtheemptyjarx: i was all geared for some great internet war
[19:47] WhipHorsesEyes: when all else fails, we can whip the horses eyes and make them sleep
[19:48] xtheemptyjarx: seems like it would work
[19:48] xtheemptyjarx: did someone say that?
[19:48] WhipHorsesEyes: jim morrison
[19:49] WhipHorsesEyes: i am going to get ready to leave my house now
[19:49] WhipHorsesEyes: i'll see you in like 20 minutes
[19:49] xtheemptyjarx: 20 minutes?
[19:50] xtheemptyjarx: what are you doing?
[19:50] WhipHorsesEyes: yeah nigga
[19:50] xtheemptyjarx: hahaha
[19:53] WhipHorsesEyes: im ready to leave now. i guess i grwatly over estimated the time it would take me to put on some flip flops and grab my purse
[19:53] xtheemptyjarx: hahaha |
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| 08:41am 15/09/2006 |
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mood: teeth hurt music: panic!
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so i like the new lj setup
you guys suuuuck |
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| stifles a yawn |
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| 04:35am 09/09/2006 |
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mood:  hungry
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meooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow |
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| 11:17am 06/09/2006 |
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mood:  worried music: jimmy eat world
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my tea is tasting like soap...
i'm nauceous |
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| FUCK AN A |
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| 02:46pm 05/09/2006 |
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mood: everything music: the conductor
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people
let's get drunk and rowdy
somewhere where we can break stuff
i have the perfect place in mind |
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| place sticker on forehead. smile. |
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| 06:08pm 03/09/2006 |
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mood: i hate the mood bar music: placebo- every me and every you
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i hate being unoccupied
i have this urge to go find a guy, which is illogical because i have my fingers in a couple of relationship-pies already
i think i rebound into relationships (i'm like a rubber ball) because:
i am a dependant and i need constant reassurance
they're extremely time-consuming
they're the only thing i'm arguably good at, which is not to say i'm good at being in one, i'm just good at getting them
i have this companionship-impluse. this is also illogical, because i hate people. i don't make much of a companion.
i need something a little more healthy than fucked up realtionships to take up my time.
i should start selling drugs.
or get job working at a phone sex hotline.
....
wait. that epiphany began life as a joke, but... it's perfect.
i think i just made a definitive career choice. |
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| 07:50pm 08/08/2006 |
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mood: pensive
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sometimes i catch sight of my reflection in my peripheral vision and automatically turn to see it, and i'll see my face completely expressionless with my face all puffing out of my head and all i can think is that i look feral, like one of the creatures from the quizno's commercials and i have to curb the irrational impulse to bare my teeth and gnaw on something (something like my wrist). it makes me want to ambush someone in the jungle, to jump out of the mud and grime and tackle them at the knees. i think, when i'm in this state, that i could engage in cannibalism, but only if it was my kill.
now, is this me or is this the mirror toying with me? is it me but not me, half me and half mirror doppleganger as i'm halfway through turning? the mirror world must be completely savage.
i say we send an envoy of christian missionaries into the mirror world to bring the thruth of the word of god. |
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| 11:16pm 22/07/2006 |
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mood:  anxious
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what are you looking forward to? |
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| the red button |
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| 01:56pm 22/07/2006 |
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mood:  weird music: royskopp
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i don't want to fall in love again
it's stupid |
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| my house is flooding |
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| 04:10pm 07/07/2006 |
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mood:  depressed music: tapppp tap taaaaap
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resourceful cockroaches and their powers of ingenuity vs. the elements backed by mother nature herself- who will triumph?
either way, i lose.
days left with newly soggy house- 6
and counting |
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| 01:42am 04/06/2006 |
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i'm having a really weird night |
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| hey. |
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| 08:22pm 19/05/2006 |
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mood: sleepy
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i love drinking.
and i have the rest of the day to do it. |
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| hahahawheeeeeeeee |
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| 08:01pm 28/04/2006 |
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mood:  getting fucked up music: jew
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oh man i am getting so fucked up
tonight is going to be awesome |
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